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SILENCE
Why dont you come and see
what he did to me
What is going on
you know its been going on for long
Just keep covering your eyes
we will make it a big disguise
Its our 'little' secret
too ourselves will we keep it
Today he gets his way
please remember tomorrow is a new day
A new day for what, i think
for in his presence i dare not blink
LITTLE GIRL
A little girl-so sweet & shy
a trusted brother made her cry
from ages 6 to 12 years old
"its our secret" he said-she never told
growing up feeling empty & lost
did he know how much it would cost?
No! he didnt care about the child standing there
dealing with selfhatred-drowning in tears
he just cared about his sexual needs
now she stands here-needing to bleed
taking a razor-being percise
cutting her arm-slice after slice
feelings of anger & love betrayed
for yrs she kept quiet & always obeyed
until she could keep it no longer inside
Too much pain-she wanted to die
how could he do that to a child?
messing up her head-innocents defiled
its just too hard-day after day
so this is what I have to say
take a knife-cut it deep
drops of blood before I sleep
if I die before I wake
life was just too cruel to take
relief is felt & blood flows red
feeling alive-insted of dead
selfhatred, anger, guilt flow out
total satisfaction-without a doubt
fighting depression everday
insecurities & fear along the way
low self esteem, feelings of dispair
but nobody ever said life was fair
There's alot of us here-you see
abused, broken, wanting to be free
were afraid, scarred needing care
looking for help-is anyone there?
Dont look at us in discust
a non-judgemental attitude is a must
remember were still lost children inside
running from the pain we try to hide
just reach out & be a friend
dont lie to us or try to pretend
give us comfort when we cry
so we dont give up & decide to die
scars tell a story of the pain inside
revealing our secrets we try to hide
showing the misery that alot of us share
hoping & praying someone will care
maybe if you look deep in my eyes
you'll see the child behind the cries
& the things that murdered her soul
& the selfhatred thats taking its toll
we numb our brains to stay alive
whatever we have to do to survive
we cut ourselves & burn our skin
to punish ourselves & get rid of sin
were looked upon as freaks & outcasts
but were just trying to get rid of the past
to destroy the images & lies that were told
that left us broken, messed up & cold
if you really listen & try to understand
maybe I'll trust you & take your hand
just listen to me when I need your ears
give me your arms to hug away my fears
help me rip out the crazy thoughts inside
& try to find the part of me that died
help me to like myself again
stick with me & be a true friend.
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